It has been a very long time, readers—if any of you are still vaguely wondering what has happened and where I have gone. The truth is, I have not gone anywhere. I’m still here. While I wish I could say I’ve been busy (I have) and have let reviews lapse, that’s not entirely the whole situation.
In all honesty, I was in a relationship for many years that ended last summer. If anything, I thought reading and reviewing would make an ideal escape from all of the emotions I was feeling. What I didn’t expect was my complete inability to concentrate on reading, let alone reviewing. If I hadn’t pre-written the last few reviews, JRT would have gone silent much sooner. At the risk of sounding (more) melodramatic, I was (and still think I am) more than a little devastated and very saddened. I’ve been inundated with all of the appropriately clichéd phrases and love my friends and family for being absolutely wonderful and supportive. They, of course, knew what had happened. You did not.
I thought taking a break from reviewing would help rekindle the hobby, but almost a year later, my heart is just not into it yet. I still miss and love my partner, my best friend, my favorite and most wonderful person very much—when we all know what I really need to keep trying to do is move forward.
There’s a professional level of perserverance I haven’t managed to master regarding this blog, something that has always been personal to me, despite being so public. I don’t want to write poor reviews; I do want to engage with books I adore by sharing my thoughts with other avid readers. I don’t know how long that will take, but I want to keep this option open, just in case.
I’m not looking for sympathy; I wanted to explain the silence and trust my honesty wouldn’t sound completely silly. I’m still up for chatting books on Goodreads or occasionally on Twitter. And yes, I have seen “The Hunger Games” movie.